Well, my trek on the path of her hug stay at home mom continues. It continues with triumphs, failures, laughter, and frustration. I find myself learning more about my personal clock. I am most definitely NOT a morning person. I do not tend to be productive beyond the absolute necessities before 10:00 a.m. After that, I slowly gain momentum. I have also learned that it does not matter how early I go to bed. Sure, if I go to bed earlier, I may wake up feeling like getting out of bed but I am still pretty laid back until 10:00 a.m.
Now, with that being said...I wish I was more like my mother. She wakes up, totally as in 100%, when her feet hit the floor. She has passed that gift down to my daughter, ironically her name sake. They are both busy from the time they greet their day. They are both capable of intelligent conversation, smiling, witty comments, and more. All of these things happen with no caffeine! I find that miraculous!
So, I am muddling through my days. I have my first obligation to my demanding 3 year old. If she wants to play, we play. If she takes her nap and wants me to lay with her, I am there. She is one of my reasons for making this lifestyle change. She is also way too precious to ignore in favor of dusting, sweeping, laundry, etc. don't get me wrong, those tasks do get done but on more of a relaxed time frame than I had originally anticipated.
I had huge visions and goals for myself as a stay-at-home mom. I then realized that the mom part was the most important. I am trying to embrace full-time motherhood in a guilt- free way. It's not easy but I am determined. Many people, including the full-time job/part-time mother me, have pre-conceived notions about what a stay-at-home mom's days should be filled with. It's not baking cookies, singing songs, taking walks, reading books, etc. all day. Now, you are no longer paying for the mundane tasks to be done. You are now the mundane task doer!
Some positives that I see so far, my oldest daughter is happier. I have strengthened my relationship with her and I truly feel like I know her better. I know her dreams and even though I have to divide my time between her and her siblings, I have more stamina and patience to deal with everything' especially at the end of the day day when they are all home and need things, all sorts of things. When I was working outside of the home, i me, I was drained at the day's end and found myself "zombie ng" through.
I yell less and laugh more. I have re-gained a sense of humore that somehow got lost in the shuffle. Life is good and I will keep you posted on my journey. I am not perfect or even close to it but I feel that I am on a most epic journey. I have more time with my kids and I am so much more I touch with them and their needs. My husband you ask? Well, he is adjusting. LOL, I think his hopes were high when it came to me being at home. He was hoping for full cookie jars and culinary masterpieces. I do manage to visit the kitchen as needed but it is still not on my list of favorite places to hang out!
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